Hello all,
The cat still hasn't come home so guess what we are still in the house. Bud is not talking to D. He won't let him play his gameboy. He is being a little cruel if you ask me. D did not let the cat out on purpose. I got fed up this morning and took D out for a walk. I figured at least it would get D out of the house at least for a little while. He enjoyed the walk and told me he wanted to go home that daddy was being mean. I tried to explain that daddy was upset about about his kitty being lost, but I really feel like daddy is going overboard with the punishment. D can't go outside, he can't play his gameboy or the xbox, and daddy wont talk to him. D told daddy how sorry he was that the cat got out and still Bud is treating him horrible. Oh yeh Bud thinks that D said sorry because Bud has been using *mental punishment* on him. Little does he know that I told D to tell him he was sorry in an attempt to get Bud to stop being so mean. But apparantly that did not work.
D has not seen his dad in about an year and instead of spending time with him he is sitting on his computer working on his personal projects. Yesterday he managed to get some money but he still has not gone to the grocery store and there isn't hardly any food left in the house. I just made us all a grilled sandwich with some $1 store cheese, butter and bread and they were nasty!!!!
So anyway our trip to Cali so far is a bust we went to the beach the first day and since then we haven't left the house. I am trying to make it throught this visit but I am not sure I can take much more. I was doing dishes this morning and I just started to cry. I don't know how much more of this I can handle. It is one thing for him to treat me the way he is treating D I am used to it, but for him to treat D like that is very upsetting for me.
You all know that D is everything to me and I know he is not the best behaved child because I do spoil the child and spare the rod but I have waited a long time for D. So fine I am a bad mom because I give my son everything on top of love. But I guess I am trying to make up for what he doesn't have a father!
Ok I have to go because I am starting to cry again.
Thanks for listening to me vent.
Me
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Lost Pussycat! Please Find!
Well D lost one of Buds cats today. D went outside and the cat snuck out. So now Bud is pissed and once again we are staying in this house.
I can't say I blame him for not wanting to leave I know when my cat got out I didn't leave till he was found. I just need to get out of here!!!
I am getting cabin fever in California for christ sake.
I keep hoping the darn cat will come out of some cubby hole in the house that we forgot to check, but I doubt it.
Ok who knows anything about quantum physics Bud made me watch a documentary last night and we ended up in a fight over it. Basically it says that we can change the molecules of water just by thought. Oh and we and everything else in this universe all equal up to GOD. That there are two of us in the same place at the same time just in alternate realities and depending on which route we take determines our future. Any way some thing like that. Any way this was a documentary done by*some of the greatest scientist in the world* Nobel Prize winners and such but some of it sounded like whoeee to me. I did agree with some of it that positive thinking is just positive thoughts covering up the many layers of negative ones but if we change our patterns we are changing our neorological make up. I agree with that but it is easier said than done!!! There were a few other things that I agreed with but I am sorry I don't know who these scientists are and unless I had absolute proof with my own eyes I am not going to believe some Japanease Scientist who says that we can change the molecules in water just by holding the bottle and thinking of a feeling. That just seems inconcievable to me. I would have to see for myself I guess. I am sorry I can't just sit down and watch something and believe it is all true. I need proof!!!!!!!!!! He once again tried to make me feel stupid because I did not agree with all that was said in this documentary.
Everything has to be his way or no way. I am not his Bitch anymore why do I have to agree. If I don't believe it I am sorry but I am certainly not going to lie and say I do.
If I had proof more than a documentary or the results of some experiement then maybe I could believe.
I do believe that there are two or more of us at a time all going in different directions and on occasion we may even cross paths that would probably what causes deja Vu.
I do believe that we all live to much in our pasts and let our triggers control us to the point of breakdowns.
Oh damn I forgot to mention the deaf actress Marlee Matlin was in this documentary. I think he thought because there was a deaf person that I know of and respect that I would automatically believe. But they had like this little movie going on the side to demenstrate what they were talking about and Marlee was the main character in that movie. She played a depressed photographer and did a fabulous job at it!!!!
Here is the name of the documentary if anyone is interested then maybe we can talk about it.
WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW (2005)
Don't ask me how or where to get it because I have no clue.
It is interesting not all of it is believeable but alot of it hits on point.
Well that is all I have to say from Cali today. The cat still hasn't come back so it looks like out night out at the Paramount is off.
Peace out
I can't say I blame him for not wanting to leave I know when my cat got out I didn't leave till he was found. I just need to get out of here!!!
I am getting cabin fever in California for christ sake.
I keep hoping the darn cat will come out of some cubby hole in the house that we forgot to check, but I doubt it.
Ok who knows anything about quantum physics Bud made me watch a documentary last night and we ended up in a fight over it. Basically it says that we can change the molecules of water just by thought. Oh and we and everything else in this universe all equal up to GOD. That there are two of us in the same place at the same time just in alternate realities and depending on which route we take determines our future. Any way some thing like that. Any way this was a documentary done by*some of the greatest scientist in the world* Nobel Prize winners and such but some of it sounded like whoeee to me. I did agree with some of it that positive thinking is just positive thoughts covering up the many layers of negative ones but if we change our patterns we are changing our neorological make up. I agree with that but it is easier said than done!!! There were a few other things that I agreed with but I am sorry I don't know who these scientists are and unless I had absolute proof with my own eyes I am not going to believe some Japanease Scientist who says that we can change the molecules in water just by holding the bottle and thinking of a feeling. That just seems inconcievable to me. I would have to see for myself I guess. I am sorry I can't just sit down and watch something and believe it is all true. I need proof!!!!!!!!!! He once again tried to make me feel stupid because I did not agree with all that was said in this documentary.
Everything has to be his way or no way. I am not his Bitch anymore why do I have to agree. If I don't believe it I am sorry but I am certainly not going to lie and say I do.
If I had proof more than a documentary or the results of some experiement then maybe I could believe.
I do believe that there are two or more of us at a time all going in different directions and on occasion we may even cross paths that would probably what causes deja Vu.
I do believe that we all live to much in our pasts and let our triggers control us to the point of breakdowns.
Oh damn I forgot to mention the deaf actress Marlee Matlin was in this documentary. I think he thought because there was a deaf person that I know of and respect that I would automatically believe. But they had like this little movie going on the side to demenstrate what they were talking about and Marlee was the main character in that movie. She played a depressed photographer and did a fabulous job at it!!!!
Here is the name of the documentary if anyone is interested then maybe we can talk about it.
WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW (2005)
Don't ask me how or where to get it because I have no clue.
It is interesting not all of it is believeable but alot of it hits on point.
Well that is all I have to say from Cali today. The cat still hasn't come back so it looks like out night out at the Paramount is off.
Peace out
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