Pussycat still Lost!!

Hello all,

The cat still hasn't come home so guess what we are still in the house. Bud is not talking to D. He won't let him play his gameboy. He is being a little cruel if you ask me. D did not let the cat out on purpose. I got fed up this morning and took D out for a walk. I figured at least it would get D out of the house at least for a little while. He enjoyed the walk and told me he wanted to go home that daddy was being mean. I tried to explain that daddy was upset about about his kitty being lost, but I really feel like daddy is going overboard with the punishment. D can't go outside, he can't play his gameboy or the xbox, and daddy wont talk to him. D told daddy how sorry he was that the cat got out and still Bud is treating him horrible. Oh yeh Bud thinks that D said sorry because Bud has been using *mental punishment* on him. Little does he know that I told D to tell him he was sorry in an attempt to get Bud to stop being so mean. But apparantly that did not work.
D has not seen his dad in about an year and instead of spending time with him he is sitting on his computer working on his personal projects. Yesterday he managed to get some money but he still has not gone to the grocery store and there isn't hardly any food left in the house. I just made us all a grilled sandwich with some $1 store cheese, butter and bread and they were nasty!!!!
So anyway our trip to Cali so far is a bust we went to the beach the first day and since then we haven't left the house. I am trying to make it throught this visit but I am not sure I can take much more. I was doing dishes this morning and I just started to cry. I don't know how much more of this I can handle. It is one thing for him to treat me the way he is treating D I am used to it, but for him to treat D like that is very upsetting for me.
You all know that D is everything to me and I know he is not the best behaved child because I do spoil the child and spare the rod but I have waited a long time for D. So fine I am a bad mom because I give my son everything on top of love. But I guess I am trying to make up for what he doesn't have a father!
Ok I have to go because I am starting to cry again.
Thanks for listening to me vent.
Me